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    5-7-2006

    ظلال كلماته ...


    فقط لأنها احبته..
    احبت تلك المدينة البعيدة..
    كانت بالنسبة لها مدينة خيالية .. لا توجد بالواقع
    وذلك لأنها ترى كل شيء فيها جميل..او كذلك تعتقد
    احبتها لأنها مدينته ..
    ثم احبته لأنه منها ..

    فقط لأنها احبته
    اصبح كل الكلام عن تلك المدينة
    وكل الأحلام في تلك المدينة
    وتأتي الشمس من تلك المدينة
    واصبح كل من يذهب ذاهب اليها ..وكل من يأتي..هو آت منها

    لم تزورها قط .. ولم يراها احد هناك
    ولكن هي وحدها تعرف .. انها مدينتها ..وانها وطنها الوحيد الآن
    تعرف كل شارع فيها ..
    زارتها الاف المرات في حكاياته
    سمعت صخب امواجها ..في هدوء صوته
    وشعرت بدفئها ..في احضانه ..

    لأنها احبته ..واحبت تلك المدينة
    نسيت عالمها ..عاشت في عالمه هو
    اصبحت لا تعرف مدينتها ..ولا تعرف نفسها ..الا عندما يأتي اليها..
    وكانت تنتظره ..تعيش فقط لتنتظر مجيئه ..
    فتحيا بعدها من جديد ..

    ولم تعرف انه لن يأتي تلك المرة
    لم تحسب حساب ذلك اليوم
    لم تعرف انه قد يرحل دون رجعة

    لأنها احبته
    قضت بقية حياتها في غربة .. غريبة وسط عالمها
    وحيدة بين اهلها..
    قتلتها الوحشة ..
    وعندما ماتت كتبت في وصيتها " اريد ان ادفن في مدينتي "
    ولم يفهم احد ..لم يعرف احد ..كم احبته

    _____________

    (*)
    أيها الغريب
    حين أفكر بكل ما كان بيننا
    أحار
    هل علي أن أشكرك ؟
    أم أن أغفر لك؟

    __________

    (*) العنوان والأبيات الشعرية من قصيدة " ايها البعيد " لغادة السمان

    25-6-2006

    @ the city of sins

    النهارده انا قررت مفتحش التلفزيون...كل حاجه فيه مستفزه...لاقيت ان فيه حاجات كتييييير قوي تتعمل...افتكرت ايام لما كنت بروح اقعد في الرحاب لوحدي...مفيش اي حاجه غير نفسك...جميل قوي ان الواحد يقعد مع نفسه...يشاكلها تشكله...يعاكسها تعاكسه...سعات حتي الواحد بيتخانق مع نفسه...ويعند عليها...ويتغابي...بس في الاخراهي برضه نفسي و بتستحملني...تفتكروا ممكن في حد يكره نفسه...متهيئلي ممكن بس معرفش ازاي...اهم حاجه ان الواحد لما يتخانق مع نفسه يبقي عارف انه في الاخر ملوش غيرها...وهي برضه ملهاش غيري...واللاهي النفس دي بتستحمل كتير قوي...ديما ً بتإل عليها...قبل ماجي امستردام عرفت انها تعتبر مدينه الخطايا...كل حاجه فيها ممكن...وبرخصه علي رأي السادات...هل ده حاجه كويسه...ان كل حاجه قدامك وانت اللي بتختار...سعات بيبقي نفسك تجرب...ولو جربت انت عارف انك هتبقي عايز تجرب تاني...سعات اللي مجربش بيبقي نفسه يجرب...وسعات اللي جرب بيتمني انه عمره مجرب...هي الحريه انك تبقي محروم و تقول انا اصلا ً مش عيز...انهي احسن؟ الحرمان بيولد الرغبه...و الاباحه بتولد التجربه...انهي احسن...لاكن كل حاجه ليها مميزتها...مش شرط المميزات تكون ميزه...احسن ان الواحد يجرب و يعيش؟...واهو لو معجبوش ميكملش...ولا انه يرتبط من الاول؟...ولو محصلش نصيب ينكسرو يكسر اللي معاه...مره و احد قللي ان كل زرعه في الغيط اللي اتربت فيه امها احسن...كل مكان و له ناسه...كل بيئة بتأثر في اللي عايشنها...مش ده اللي اتعلمناه في الابتدائيه...البيئة هي المكان المحيط بلانسان, يؤثرفيها و تؤثر فيه...بس ارجع و ألاقي ان المصريين اللي بيخرجوا بينجحوا...وسعات بيبقوا حلم نابت في الخلا...لاكن احنا اللي بنبص علي اللي عايزين نشوفه...كل حاجه في الدنيا دي فيها الجميل و الوحش...الغريب ان كل واحد بيبقي نفسه يبقي كويس...ولكن الظروف بجد بتأثر...مش كل حاجه الواحد عايزها بتحصل...كللنا طامعين...و اللي مش طامعين مش عايشين... مهو يإمي تبقي وسط الطمعين طماع...وتعيش تندم علي الناس اللي انت اخدت حقهم...او انك تعيش ندمان انك مكنتش طماع...مش عارف بصراحه هل فعلا ً الناس اللي مش طماعه بتندم... و اللا الندم ده شعور مبيحسهوش الناس القنوعه...انا طماع...أيوه انا بعترف...حد يحاكمني... نفسي استريح...عمري مندمت علي حاجه كانت معايا و سبتها...انا مؤمن بالنصيب...مفيش حاجه بتعتاك هتوح لغيرك...بس انت لازم تعمل اللي انت تقدر عليه...مش عشان اللي انت هاتعمله ده هو اللي هايجبهالك لو كانت نصيبك...لاكن لانك لازم تسعي...مفيش حاجه بتيجي بالساهل...والحاجه اللي انت هاتسعلها...ربنا هيجبهالك من ناحيه تانيه غير اللي انت سعيت فيها...
    عرفت الله بخلف الظنون!!!

    في بلد البنات

    بقالي كتير مكتبتش...مش عارف اكتب...هاحاول...بسمع منير "ليلي"...انا في امستردام...الناس هنا منظمه...يمكن عشان الناس مش كتير...معندهمش حياء...في اي حته كده بيعملوا اي حاجه...فيهم ناس طيبه...انا بعيد عن اهلي... اخواتي وحشوني قوي...زميلي في الشغل كمان وحشوني...نفسي اعرف اجمع اخواتي كلهم...مشاكل في كل حاجه...هي دي الحياه...مفيش حاجه كامله...كلنا بنحاول نعيش...في حاجات اهم كتير من الفلوس و الجواز و الشغل...كل واحد بيبص علي اللي عايز يشوفه...كلنا بنحلم...مش كل الاحلام بتتحقق...كتير منها بيضييييييع...و كتير بتحقق...وكتير بنزعل لما نتأخر و نلاقي حد تاني حققه قبلينا...بس ليه نزعل محنا اللي فرطنا فيه...مهو كان قدمنا...كان عندي حلم انني اتجوز...اخترت الحلوه...شيفه نفسها...مبتعرفش تغسل...مترضاش تندف الشقه...هل كان غلط انني اختار الجمال...مهو الجمال مطلوب...بس الجمال بيأثر علي الشخصيه...الجمال اللي جوه اهم كتير...حاولت اوضح كده كتيـــــــــر...مفيش فايده...اللي اتربي علي حاجه حايعيش عليها...اديت فرصه و اتنين و تلاته...لاكن ً في بلد البنات, كل البنات بتحلم ترفرف زي الريات...بس الريات مش هاترفف من غير الهوا...لازم الريات تسيب نفسها للهوي...لازم تنفرد و تنام...الهوي هيشلها...لاكن طول مالرايه بتحاول ترفرف بنفسها...عمر الهوه مهيعرف يرفرفها...انا بعشق البحر...انا بعشق السما...حبيبه و غريبه لكن ديما ً بعيده...لاكن محدش بيتجوز البحر...لاكن محدش بيتجوز السما...سعات الواحد ممكن يتجوز الارض الطين...مش لازم يكون جميل...كل حاجه حلوه لازم تطلع من حاجه وحشه...اللي وحش من بره, جميل من جوه...بس لازم يتلحق قبل ما يدمر نفسه من جوه كمان...الدنيا لو جرحه لونها لون فرحه...خد احلي مافيها, و المر منها ارميها...
    اهم حاجه نحلم...

    am back

    heeeeeaaaaaah,
     
    very long since my latest writings, ouaah sorry my friends. i was in a MESS.
     
    where can we begin.
     
    lets start from my trip to Holland. one day after i arrived to work, the Project Manger called me for a meeting to tell me that i'm elgiable for a busniss trip to Holland as there is a new project need to be done and they need an on-site resource.
    hemm, i thought a while then agreed, but wasn't fully convencied that the trip will be done (as all the project always get delayed or even canceled) i was likely engaged at that time (read Fat7a since 24Jan- may tell u about that later. may not ) any how the time passed and the trip time arrived and my VISA was issued and available just befor the flight with one day only. i was almost ready too. bough some Halal beaf burgers and some other stuff.
     
    i was told before my trip that there is one of our Egyption colleagues is already there. tried to contact him to arrange the first day for me.
     
    my flight was 4:20 my life friend Moh. Emad took me to good bye my fiancee then to buy the some stuff, then to the Cairo Int. Air Port.....
     
    will contenue later 3alashan 3ayez anaaaaaaammmm
     
    ouah, just one thing to tell.
     
    المصرين في الغربه اندااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااال
     
    c u soon guys
    16-2-2006

    The League (lights on the events)



    في امسيه رياضية رائعة و في حضور نخبه من مجتمع EDS فاز فريق "اهلي EDS" علي فريق "Juventus" بثلاثة اهداف نظيفة حيث افتتح لاعبي الفريق "ايهاب عبد المولي و ياسر المكاوي" هدفين في الدقيقه 8 و 14 من الشوط الاول و عززوا النصر بالهدف الثالث في الدقيقه 27 بالشوط الثاني علي قدم قائد الفريق ألاعب ايمن السكري الذي ادخر مجهوده في الشوط الاول ليبدعنا في الشوط الثاني من المباراة. وقد اضاع لاعبي الفريقين الكثير من الفرص. و كانت معظم الفرص من نصيب فريق "اهلي EDS" اللذي اضاع لاعبوه اكثر من 4 فرص مؤكده في الشوط الاول و لم يحتسب الحكم هدف للفريق في الدقيقه 25 من الشوط الثاني بعد شك مراقبي المباراة في خروج الكرة من الملعب من الجانب الايمن حيث رفع حكم الجانب الراية في حين ان حكم المباراة لم يرها نتيجة ضعف الإضاءة في هذا الجانب, مما تسبب في حدوث بلبلة في الملعب و اعتراض الكثير من لاعبي الفريقين علي طريقة ادارة الحكم للمباراة و انتهت المشكلة بطرد الحكم و استبداله مرة اخري, حيث تم استبداله في المرة الاولي بعد الشوط الاول لالتزام حكم الشوط الاول بأداء التدريبات مع فريقه.

    و قد اجاد اللاعبين "احمد ظهران ومحمد عماد الشهير بـ متعب" من فريق "اهلي EDS" في خط الدفاع و علي الجانبين الايمن و الايسر و تسببا في خلق وابل من الفرص للاعبي خط الهجوم. وذالك علي الرغم من التزامهم في أداء واجباتهم الدفاعيه علي اكمل وجه و نجحا في وقف معظم انطلاقات مهاجمي الـ"Juventus" و علي رء سهم "ماجد" الذي اعتمدوا عليه في معظم الهجمات. و قد أدي فشله  في الوصول الي مرمي "اهلي EDS"  في الشوط الاول من المباراة و هزيمة الفريق بهدفين الي ظهور حالة من عدم الثقة بين لاعبي الـ"Juventus" انتهت بالانفصال شبه التام بينه و بين باقي لاعبي الفريق وقد زاد من هذه الحالة عدم و جود صانع العاب بـ "Juventus".

     

    مراسلكم محمد فهمي (حارس مرمي فريق "اهلي EDS") من داخل البطولة

     


    9-2-2006

    The Cairo Stadum

    i went to the Cairo stadum to stand on my Egypt national football team against the Senegal one.

     

    Physicallyi was thier, but i havn't seen the match  as i was sitting in the first row behind the goal   poor me (paid about 60 LE to NOT see the match) but even so i didn't see the match, i did all my dutes as an Egptian citizen :D who have to support his team

     
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    19-1-2006

    'I Hope You Dance...

     'I Hope You Dance...'

     

     I'm reading more and dusting less. I'm

    sitting in the yard and admiring the view without fussing about the

    weeds in the garden. I'm spending more time with my family and friends

    and less time working.

     

     Whenever possible, life should be a

    pattern of experiences to savor, not to endure. I'm trying to recognize

    these moments now and cherish them.

     

     I'm not "saving" anything; we use our

    good china and crystal for every special event such as losing a pound,

    getting the sink unstopped, or the first Amaryllis blossom.

     

     I wear my good blazer to the market.

    My theory is if I look prosperous, I can shell out $28.49 for one small

    bag of groceries. I'm not saving my good perfume for special parties,

    but wearing it for clerks in the hardware store and tellers at the bank.

     

     "Someday" and "one of these days" are

    losing their grip on my vocabulary. If it's worth seeing or hearing or

    doing, I want to see and hear and do it now.

     

     I'm not sure what others would've done

    had they known they wouldn't be here for the tomorrow that we all take

    for granted. I think they would have called family members and a few

    close friends. They might have called a few former friends to apologize

    and mend fences for past squabbles. I like to think they would have

    gone out for a Chinese dinner or for whatever their favorite food was.

     

     It's those little things left undone

    that would make me angry if I knew my hours were limited. Angry

    because I hadn't written certain letters that I intended to write one of these days.

    Angry and sorry that I didn't tell my husband and parents often enough

    how much I truly love them. I'm trying very hard not to put off, hold

    back, or save anything that would add laughter and luster to our lives.

    And every morning when I open my eyes, tell myself that it is special.

    17-1-2006

    Rel 6.4

    today we were installing the latest ABN AMRO, WCS intranet release 6.4 on our local environment while one of my colleagues (Walid Saif) shot me this picture, thx Walid  

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    4-1-2006

    The Road Not Taken

    Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
    And sorry I could not travel both
    And be one traveler, long I stood
    And looked down one as far as I could
    To where it bent in the undergrowth;
    Then took the other, as just as fair,
    And having perhaps the better claim,
    Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
    Though as for that the passing there
    Had worn them really about the same,
    And both that morning equally lay
    In leaves no step had trodden black.
    Oh, I kept the first for another day!
    Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
    I doubted if I should ever come back.
    I shall be telling this with a sigh
    Somewhere ages and ages hence:
    Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
    I took the one less traveled by,
    And that has made all the difference.

    18-12-2005

    a new way of image show ;)

    as this space storage is getting empty i had thought about other ways to upload images on this site but using an outer storage, and i think i have succeded

     

     

    BTW, all the images on this space or thous i'll upload by the new way are MY photos and with my equipment.

     

    mmm, not all of them, but i can say 99.9% 

     

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    17-12-2005

    cold shower

    Ouoooh, yesterday was a very bad cold night, i came from the tennis trainig to foud that the water heater isn't working, this was really bad. and i had to take a cold shower.
     
    mmm, about the work we r in state of implimenting a new release. so there is some documentation needs to be done. and guss what no one luve to document. i proposed to create the testing strategy (this was a bad decision anyway) cause all what was important to write was a simple table of woh will test what on which box (server) and when. but at the end i have writen about 10 pages    all this pages was about of nonsense talking about the project and the kinds of tests. and the procedures of testing, risks, assumptions, and bluh bluh bluh. mmm, this topics may seem important but i c it bull shit as every one of the test guys knows exactly what to do.
    Grrrrr, enough about work am in the weekend .
     
    in my vacations or weekend normally i go out from everyone and go to El Rehab to set there safely about humans. the place here is quite quiet place. i go ther to revise the silence code (or by other words to listen to nature music, the only Halal music ). some times i took one of my friend with me.
     
    oooooooohhhh it's raining now while am writing, this so sweet , even you while reading this can smell the rain scent in the air. that smell that the rain come. i think this is the firse day rain we got here in egypt this year.
     
    the sun come back again yeah it was a fast rain.
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    am missing my sister doughter Salma, her birthday is comming. she is a smart 6yo girl. and i love those little girls especially if they r smart and am their uncle .
     
    now i need to go as i need to do some stuff here .
     
    BTW, i wrought this as i noticed that the number of guys who is visting the page are increasing slightly. so i thought you might deserve a littel interacting from me. and also you can add comments to let me know ur openion on my blogs at the bottom of every blog item
     
    thanks for everyone who came here to read my words.
     
     keep in touch, ok.
     
    SalaM
    Sarwat

    My Baby Shot Me Down

    I was five and he was six
    We rode on horses made of sticks
    He wore black and I wore white
    He would always win the fight

    Bang bang, he shot me down
    Bang bang, I hit the ground
    Bang bang, that awful sound
    Bang bang, my baby shot me down.

    Seasons came and changed the time
    When I grew up, I called him mine
    He would always laugh and say
    "Remember when we used to play?"

    Bang bang, I shot you down
    Bang bang, you hit the ground
    Bang bang, that awful sound
    Bang bang, I used to shoot you down.

    Music played, and people sang
    Just for me, the church bells rang.

    Now he's gone, I don't know why
    And till this day, sometimes I cry
    He didn't even say goodbye
    He didn't take the time to lie.

    Bang bang, he shot me down
    Bang bang, I hit the ground
    Bang bang, that awful sound
    Bang bang, my baby shot me down...

    Artist: Nancy Sinatra Lyrics
    Song: Bang Bang (My Baby Shot Me Down) Lyrics

    31-8-2005

    ana mab2tsh 7eml gar7 - Mohamed Fouad

    انا مبقتشى حمل جرح
    انا مبقتشى استنى فرح
    انا مبقتشى يا حبيبى
    عالليالى قادر

    انا مبقتشى اصعب عليك
    انا ولا مره غلطت فيك
    دانا ولا مره يا حبيبى
    اتعملى خاطر

    ده حلم حبى راح
    ومكانه ساب جراح
    وجاى تقول سماح
    لا لا لالالا
    متقولى عملت ايه
    عشان يتخاف عليه
    واعيش فى النار دى ليه
    لا لا لالالا

    بعد ما قلبى هان عليك
    وبعد ما شاف القسوه فيك
    ازاى قولى يا حبيبى
    هيآمنلك تانى

    كان قلبى برىء معاك
    شبهتك بالملاك
    ياما اتمنيت رضاك
    ليله ورا ليله

    مش انت اللى ابتديت
    ضحيت بيه ونهيت
    مبقاش ينفع ياريت
    كان بإيدينا

    24-8-2005

    what Girls means

    What girls REALLY mean.

    Yes = No
    No = Yes
    Maybe = No
    Do what you want = You'll pay for this later...
    I'm not upset = Of course im upset, stupid moron.
    Sure Go ahead= I don't want you too
    I'Il forgive you = I will never forget this
    Im fat = tell me I'm beautiful
    We need to talk = I need to bitch
    You have to learn to communicate! = Freaking agree with me
    It's your decision = The right decision should be obvious by now?
    I never want to talk to you again = Keep Trying
    I hate you = dammit I love you -- try harder
    Are you listening to me? = Too late, you're dead
    It's over = Its not over freaking fix it before it is

    14-8-2005

    Lady written by Kenny Rodgers.

    Lady, I’m your knight in shining armor and I love you
    You have made me what I am and I am yours

    My love, there’s so many ways I want to say I love you

    Let me hold you in my arms forever more

    You have gone and made me such a fool

     I’m so lost in your love

    And oh, we belong together

    Won’t you believe in my song?

    Lady, for so many years I thought I’d never find you

    You have come into my life and made me whole

    Forever let me wake to see you each and every morning Let me hear you whisper softly in my ear

    In my eyes I see no one else but you

    There’s no other love like our love

    And yes, oh yes, I’ll always want you near me I’ve waited for you for so long

    Lady, your love’s the only love I need And beside me is where I want you to be

    ’cause, my love, there’s somethin’ I want you to know

    You’re the love of my life, you’re my lady!

    13-8-2005

    Lit it rain

    WAKE UP IN DA MORNING I GOT SLEEP IN MY EYES I FEEL BAD NO BODY GIVES A DAWN ABOUT ME

    Y´ALL REPRESENTIN´RUNNIN´EVERYDAY FROM THE PAIN LET IT GO AWAY IT´S DRIVIN´ ME INSANE NOT TO MY DYING DAY HIGH FROM THE SKY RAIN WASH AWAY MY PAINAND MAINTAINI CAN USE MY BRAIN TO PLAY THE GAMEIT´S A SHAME TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHO I BLAME WHEN A CHILD IS BORN MAMA AND DADDY NEED A CHANGE LIKE A WINDOW NEEDS A FRAME AND THE SUGAR TO THE CANELIKE A BABY HAS A NAME 2:35 IN THE NIGHT CAN´T SLEEP SEE ME STRUGGLING SHEETS IN MY BED FULL OF SWEAT GOT TO KEEP HUSTLINGONE AND ONE IS TWO NOT THREETHE PAIN WILL RELEASE CAUSE IN GOD I BELIEVEYES THE ONLY WAY IN LIVE TO SUCCEED IS BE BLESSEDFREE YOUR MIND FROM HEAD TO TOE AND GET DRESSEDFRESH EXPRESS WHAT YOU HAVE IN YOUR CHEST TO BE OR NOT TO BE IS THE BIG QUEST FEDERAL REPUBLIC OF GERMANYOF COURSE THE WESTNOW YOU THINK THAT YOU KNOW WHERE W´RE COMMING FROMWIPE AWAY YOUR TEARS LITTLE SISTER AND PRAY TO GOD

    ONE DAY RAIN WILL COME BY YOUR WAY DON´T EVER LOOSE HOPE NATURE GIVES AND TAKES NO FUSSASHES

    TO ASHES AND DUST TO DUST 

    31-7-2005

    me and the cats :s

    Do u know thomthing, the police of 'just wait and see' turned out to be the best one i have ever seen.
     
    Girls just like cats if you let them, they'll play with the ball, if tried to give them the ball your self, they'll let you and go. The game here is how u'll hide it, but in the same time let them feel with its existence, smell its scent, even touch it in thier dreams. Make them always looking after it but never give it to them. make them feel thats the best ball they would ever can get. that whene they will get it, it would be like the end of the world, it would put them on the highest mountain in the unverse. but don't give it to them or make them feel that u're hiding it. if they discovered anytime through the game that you are hiding it they will leave you for ever with no return with no hope they will leave you alone in a desert in an island just with nothing at all. not even a sound. They will leave you with no mercy  without a look. just leav you.
     
    At this time u'll hope that you didn't play this game ever. 
     
    But do u know, If you just looked back to this experiment. You will find that if this game was open again to play u'll never hesitate to play like a hammer.
     
    just try to play it right and never get  off your mind that you will lose someday somehow on the hands of some beloved one.
     
     
    I ' m    j u s t   looking forward to play again, but i'm really looking to play it as a game for my life. never let it, never hate it.
     
    i hope she just feel i'm not playing cause i do not this time....
    22-6-2005

    no one is sainless

    no one is sinless

    and one day one time all your sins ur looks, your tatches, ur sniffs, your ..., all all all. Will be revealed at once. in front of all you whom loved and to who respected you.

    just do for that day...

    cause it's comming...

    so far, so soon...

    doesn't matter

    it'll COME ...

    16-5-2005

    a7la kalam

    eshta ya satamouny wa a7ep elly y7ayouni

     
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